While there doesn't seem to be a lot going on in my physical life there definitely has been a lot of stuff going on in my inside world and I must say I'm rather excited in some ways for what will happen next... Too pretty to not take a photo... perhaps it was meant for me... There has been lots of healing that has happened and that's what I'd like to talk about today because some day it may help someone else who is struggling with similar things or searching for answers and p

I stepped a few yards off the trail when a branch just randomly fell down next to me(there was no wind at all) and at about the same time..

One beautiful afternoon I was laying in the yard enjoying the beauty when I felt something wiggle under my leg. I froze, trying to think what ever could be small enough to fit under my leg. I sat up but didn't see anything. I patted the grass a bit but couldn't figure out what it was. A few minutes later when I was sitting cross-legged I felt it under my knee. This time I realized that I was sitting on top of some mouse tunnels. The grass had been cut so they were more expose

Not too much seems to be happening lately. Just little things here and there. Beautiful little things. And if I wasn't paying attention or aware enough I would miss them... While writing my last blog post I forgot to mention that while I was reading the book The Psychic Sasquatch by Jack "Kewaunee" Lapseritis, he mentioned that there is a vortex (where Sasquatch can slip into other dimensions) maybe 15 minutes from my house. I found that very interesting as it is very near to

... a dead tree branch just randomly broke off in the neighbors yard. There was no wind...

I honestly was not expecting what happened...

I also felt very connected as though I was surrounded by a crowd of loving beings. I was about 3/4 of the way down the trail and had just...

As I was standing there softly stroking a branch of the maple tree I noticed something brown in the neighbor's yard about 5 yards away. "Is it a rabbit?" I wondered, peering closer.

No, I didn't actually leave my body. But my focus did... The last several weeks I've been consumed with clearing out clutter and things of the past that no longer serve me. My friend also needed me to bring her home from the hospital after surgery so that took up another day. As well as finishing up and clearing out online clutter. Then I had a consultation at an oral surgeon and had to get a driver because I don't have a vehicle currently only to have it cost 3x more than I

I haven't been in a writing mood lately. Partly because it feels like not much is happening, on the surface anyway. A lot has been going on under the surface and if you're interested you may catch glimpses as I tell you about what's been happening in my life lately. You may already have seen the last two posts about the lyre harp and the roof top garden ... They both were things that happened in my outer world after a long internal process. I have been practicing reiki on m

This is my rebellion cake... In all my life I don't remember ever seeing a square layer cake and the other day when I realized it I thought to heck with it, I'm going to make it square and I decided to call it my rebellion cake. You see, I am not doing well lately. I've lost all appetite. All motivation. All interest in anything except scrolling reels on social media... Triggered by the realization that I don't know when I'll be able to buy groceries again. Slamming me back i

He sat at his desk soberly, his wife sitting in the corner chair and a chair next to her empty for me. At first glance, I could tell it was

Now people say live the love and light and fight the dark. Ok. If you want to get rid of the wars and difficulties in your outer world...

There's a memory that keeps coming to mind the last several days... It was a moment when I was studying the Bible years ago and I was reading the passage where Jesus told his followers that they will do the same things he does (John 14:12) and not just that, but greater things than he does. I remember pondering this and wondering if Jesus healed mostly with his hands than why in today's world is there so little healing happening in the christian religion. Instead what I saw a

Last night I unfollowed a number of people on social media because I cannot handle the pain of the events that they share. For a while now I've been pondering what is the best course of action that I can take regarding all the horrible traumatic things happening around the world and even more so, in this country. There are times I find myself feeling another's hopelessness in their situation. Another's horror at justice gone wrong. Another's fear of what lies ahead. Another's

I am so happy! It's been a crazy week with all the decisions, sleepless nights, and all the beautiful things that have been happening...

I've been trying to sit with the memories and pain but I was also afraid I was retraumatizing myself so this morning I wanted to try to...

It is late but this memory has been weighing heavily on my mind since it came to the forefront last night. I have no idea what triggered it but I was just getting ready for bed and not particularly thinking about any one thing. I know I have briefly mentioned this in another blog post or two and I will spare the gruesome details but proceed at your own risk 🚩for this could be triggering to some...🚩 We had barn cats when I was growing up and we always loved playing with the

It is Monday morning.  I literally don't know how to fight anymore. I rested all weekend, only to feel as drained as i did before, like it didn't help at all. I am sick, quite sick. I can feel it. And the dizziness makes my stomach queasy. There has to be a way to get my needs met. But I'm literally out of ideas. And energy.  I will have to keep forcing myself to go to work because I see no other way despite being drained and sick.  I did my taxes only to discover I barely ma

I want to say how much I appreciate the people who genuinely care about me as a person for who I am and those who have invested in my situation. If it wasn't for those people I would not be where I am today. I was just thinking today of how I used to write so much about my healing journey but since I landed in the shelter last October I haven't had much progress to write about, especially about IFS sessions. It seems like ending up in the shelter and the grueling months of tr