That tooth was dead and was going to kill me if I don't get it out of my mouth soon! I also learned that it can cause referred pain to...

No, I didn't actually leave my body. But my focus did... The last several weeks I've been consumed with clearing out clutter and things of the past that no longer serve me. My friend also needed me to bring her home from the hospital after surgery so that took up another day. As well as finishing up and clearing out online clutter. Then I had a consultation at an oral surgeon and had to get a driver because I don't have a vehicle currently only to have it cost 3x more than I

I haven't been in a writing mood lately. Partly because it feels like not much is happening, on the surface anyway. A lot has been going on under the surface and if you're interested you may catch glimpses as I tell you about what's been happening in my life lately. You may already have seen the last two posts about the lyre harp and the roof top garden ... They both were things that happened in my outer world after a long internal process. I have been practicing reiki on m

This is my rebellion cake... In all my life I don't remember ever seeing a square layer cake and the other day when I realized it I thought to heck with it, I'm going to make it square and I decided to call it my rebellion cake. You see, I am not doing well lately. I've lost all appetite. All motivation. All interest in anything except scrolling reels on social media... Triggered by the realization that I don't know when I'll be able to buy groceries again. Slamming me back i

He sat at his desk soberly, his wife sitting in the corner chair and a chair next to her empty for me. At first glance, I could tell it was

I have a few things to share with my subscribers that may be found interesting and just some of my thoughts... One day about two weeks ago I was doom-scrolling and getting so scared about everything showing up in my feed that I messaged my therapist just to tell somebody so I'm not alone it. She encouraged me to keep sending light out into the world or doing something kind for someone. I wanted to but first I felt like I needed to go outside in nature. As I sat in the yard I

Now people say live the love and light and fight the dark. Ok. If you want to get rid of the wars and difficulties in your outer world...

There's a memory that keeps coming to mind the last several days... It was a moment when I was studying the Bible years ago and I was reading the passage where Jesus told his followers that they will do the same things he does (John 14:12) and not just that, but greater things than he does. I remember pondering this and wondering if Jesus healed mostly with his hands than why in today's world is there so little healing happening in the christian religion. Instead what I saw a

It has been hard work over the years to face the darkness and pain inside of me. It doesn't seem to get easier except I find myself more...

Last night I unfollowed a number of people on social media because I cannot handle the pain of the events that they share. For a while now I've been pondering what is the best course of action that I can take regarding all the horrible traumatic things happening around the world and even more so, in this country. There are times I find myself feeling another's hopelessness in their situation. Another's horror at justice gone wrong. Another's fear of what lies ahead. Another's

I am so proud of myself. I never dreamed I'd be able to do as much as I have in the last several days. All of a sudden it looks fun and...

I am so happy! It's been a crazy week with all the decisions, sleepless nights, and all the beautiful things that have been happening...

I was sitting outside drinking my homemade cacao drink and thoroughly enjoying the sunshine when I happened to look down and to my shock there was a bee sitting on my upper thigh as calm as could be like he was my best friend. My first reaction was panic but I didn't want to get stung. I managed to get it to climb on my mug handle to get it off me and it came up to the rim of my mug. Using a dried up leaf, I tried to get it off so it doesn't fall in my drink. It didn't want t

The last month or two has been quite the journey... exciting and full of curiosity but also a lot of moments of fear, worry and anxiety. But I don't regret any of it as I have learned so much and my curiosity just keeps growing...I find myself excited and anticipating good things to come. Before I start describing all the things that I've been learning, exploring and experiencing, I just want to mention that if you are not open-minded and are going to judge and criticize the

I've been trying to sit with the memories and pain but I was also afraid I was retraumatizing myself so this morning I wanted to try to...

It is late but this memory has been weighing heavily on my mind since it came to the forefront last night. I have no idea what triggered it but I was just getting ready for bed and not particularly thinking about any one thing. I know I have briefly mentioned this in another blog post or two and I will spare the gruesome details but proceed at your own risk 🚩for this could be triggering to some...🚩 We had barn cats when I was growing up and we always loved playing with the

Some of you know that my car has been on its last leg the last month and that I have no way of replacing it when it quits. If you have never been in such a place you will not be able to grasp the direness, stress, and frustration that one will experience in such a situation. Just imagine what it would be like to have your health declining making it impossible to work enough to pay your bills and then you find out that it will cost $4000 to replace your cars engine and you alr

It is Monday morning.  I literally don't know how to fight anymore. I rested all weekend, only to feel as drained as i did before, like it didn't help at all. I am sick, quite sick. I can feel it. And the dizziness makes my stomach queasy. There has to be a way to get my needs met. But I'm literally out of ideas. And energy.  I will have to keep forcing myself to go to work because I see no other way despite being drained and sick.  I did my taxes only to discover I barely ma

I want to say how much I appreciate the people who genuinely care about me as a person for who I am and those who have invested in my situation. If it wasn't for those people I would not be where I am today. I was just thinking today of how I used to write so much about my healing journey but since I landed in the shelter last October I haven't had much progress to write about, especially about IFS sessions. It seems like ending up in the shelter and the grueling months of tr

A bit ago I was thinking about perfectionism and the role it has played in my life. I remember different people throughout my life telling me that maybe I'm trying to hard. I find it hard at times when people I work with don't seem to care about their work or they don't seem to care about how their actions affect others. I don't want to be upset with them but I just don't get the mindset. For me, I think perfectionism started when I was still quite young and I saw a plaque in