Another Healing By Kamooh & A Lesson In Learning To Trust Myself
- Sparkling Diamond
- Oct 15
- 13 min read
Welcome back to another episode of my life where healing, growing and experiences all converge into a beautiful tapestry called life... this past week has been a big lesson in learning to trust myself and with some help from Kamooh, my spirit guides and the trees I'm back to feeling like myself again...
It all started a little over a week ago. I was able to pay for another emotion code session (mentioned in my last blog post) and this time we started on the heart wall. She was able to find that my heart wall was made of platinum 3 miles thick and it was in the shape of a heart locket which makes sense to me because I love hearts and I had to think of a button I once found of a heart shaped lock and key that I saved until I came up with a way to use it and now it makes sense why I so connected with it.
She was able to help me release 17 emotions (these were like the gunk around my heart) most of between the ages of 0-6, a few from 8 years old and one from when I was 10 which was very encouraging and helped me feel like I was making progress. She again said most people can't release so many but to be very careful to do the rainbow and sparkles meditation at least 5 times for the next 2 days and maybe 3 days. I definitely felt lighter by the time we were done which was pretty neat as later in pondering the process I realized that in 2 sessions she had helped me release 30 emotions of low heavy vibrations and it was no wonder I felt like I had some weight taken off. But I was not prepared for what was going to happen next...
The next day I had a scheduled meeting with another energy healer. For background this person had reached out to me in the beginning of the month because she had seen my comment and post about asking for help with my rent. My first gut reaction was a red flag because it reminded me of another person who had reached out offering help but after several years it was no longer safe for me to continue trying to heal with her help and I discontinued our relationship after she told me I can't trust my gut after the hell I've been through in this life. There's more to the story which is for another time.
This healer had sent me a recorded healing she specifically did for me telling me I can listen to it if I feel led to. While I'm quite addicted to trying to help myself heal it was a little bit weird to listen to the healing and realize that this person had accessed my energy field without my consent. Now I've read enough to know that it is possible to access other people's energy and subconscious but that it is unethical to do so without consent. In fact, when I learned reiki I was taught that it is unethical to send healing to someone if they didn't ask for or consent to it and if you find yourself wanting to send healing to where it isn't invited or consented to then you need to look at yourself and your motives because it is a "you" problem.
We met on zoom and she told me I don't need to have the video on, that she lives in a very remote place and sometimes the calls drop due to the connection. She asked about my situation and so I explained a bit and she asked me why I'm laughing. It was such a an unexpected question that I didn't know what to say. She told me that demonic forces and negative influences can come into people's lives through our genealogy and can hinder money flow in their lives basically making their lives hell on earth but then she said she isn't in a place to work with people for free but sent me links to a number of healings she thought might be helpful. She said that apparently my money flow wasn't completely blocked because people were still helping me out including herself when she basically never sends money to anyone...
Ok, so I was giving her a chance despite my initial reaction to her reaching out but to say she triggered me with her words was an understatement. First off, I do the best I can to cope with my situation and if like attracts like as I keep hearing from different sources then it is better for me to be in the moment and enjoying myself in my daily life than to worry about how future bills would get paid. It doesn't mean I'm not continuing to look for a job or listing belongings for sale which I do. How was I to explain that I felt very strongly that I was supposed to trust that I was going to be taken care of and all my efforts to get a job or make income had fallen flat? Did my intuition and experience not count? And suddenly my dire financial situation was suddenly the work of demons and negative influences?
I was catapulted back into the many preachings I had heard from the pulpit in the Pentecostal churches. All the fear mongering that I've been trying to heal from. All the doubts of what is right and what is wrong and can I actually trust what feels right for me? All the worries about whether I'm doing good enough and all the contradictions of beliefs and teachings. It really took me for a loop...
I listened to the first recording she had recommended and felt the energy flowing through my body which gave me hope that perhaps it would help. But very early the next morning I woke up feeling angry and irritated. I didn't know what to do and couldn't relax enough to fall asleep again. Out of desperation I decided to see if I could release the anger in the emotion code way and knowing that anger is often a secondary emotion I also knew there was fear and anxiety underneath. I intended to release all three, one at a time, swiping a magnet 3 times for each time, and by the last swipe I felt my body to go into a deep relaxed state which felt amazing and since when something is released it needs to be replaced with something better so I tried to replace those low vibration emotions with unconditional love and then fell asleep.
I woke up refreshed and was quite thrilled with my experience of releasing emotions and just for making sure I was doing the right thing I reached out to my emotion code practitioner, asking for advice or suggestions. She cautioned me saying to be careful not to overdo it and that sometimes doing it ourselves is harder because the subconscious might not be ready and that's why people go to practitioners. She also explained that I want to be careful to not overdo it as releasing too much can make people feel sick. I accepted her words because they felt true and I understood and while I felt like myself at the time I did feel quite miserable and sick later in the day.
It was definitely complicated by talking to the other energy healer. It takes me a while to process experiences and this was no exception. She wanted me to let her know if any of the recorded healings sent me helped so I let her know that I felt the energy moving in a seemingly positive way. But I also began to see things that seemed contradictory. On the post where we first connected she had commented that she had made "extra money" earlier in the year and therefore was free to take extra time off from work in this season which seemed to contradict what she said about not being able to work with anyone for free. Later she posted about doing a clearing in the apartment building where she supposedly lives which also didn't make much sense as she had told me she lives quite remotely with not the greatest Internet connection. So ok, I don't know the whole situation and she lives in another country so I can't just go and scout it out and so I am just like ok this is a bit weird and red flaggish....
I would have left it at that except I didn't feel like myself. From the time we had connected on zoom I felt like there was a tightness in my chest. A constriction. I assumed it was just from the dry air from the colder temps we had been having but it was still a weird unusual feeling. While she had triggered a lot of junk by all her talk about negative entities and demons it didn't stop there. Random old memories and negative emotions continued to arise out of the blue as I continued through the rest of the week. I tried to continue doing my rainbow and sparkles meditation but it became increasingly difficult. I felt like I was stuck in my head and while I was able to continue releasing and healing some stuff here and there I felt the discouragement increasing by leaps and bounds. Like overwhelming financial calamity was heaping up against me and I had no place to turn for help. Like I should deny what felt right and aligned for me and to take whatever measures needed to get money into my hands. It didn't help either when she told me to let her know when I get a job. Um, I've been doing my best to conjure up some sort of income stream for the last few months to no avail and this implied to me that I hadn't done anything yet and was just being lazy. What a blow!
I did reach out and connect with a loving kind grandmother who channels the Grandmothers and is also connected with the Sasquatch and talking with her helped a lot as I realized that we had some of the same stuff in our backgrounds and she understood where I was coming from in some aspects. She thought of a group that might be a good fit for me and when I checked it out the next event was for Sunday evening.
It was rather long(3 hours) and consisted of channeling the hybrid children. Of course I was interested to watch because I know that it triggers a lot of memories of the Pentecostal church and people "channeling" god or his spirit and other craziness and I thought it might help. While I did enjoy it I found it very hard to be comfortable watching people channel until there were 2 beautiful interactions of people being ministered to and helped by these unseen beings which then helped my heart open to the rest of it. It felt like a very safe, supportive and loving group and I can't wait for the next event.
The next morning I was processing the event and everything else that had been happening and I was so tired of the negative emotions I was feeling. It seemed unnatural and not like myself at all. I felt like I was no longer able to trust and I felt stuck in my head and I couldn't figure out how to get back into my heart and love. I no longer felt any love for myself which greatly hindered me from doing the rainbows and sparkles meditation. In determination I lay on the sofa determined to take as much time as needed to complete it. Hard as I tried, I couldn't, and I lay there for a bit wondering what in the world to do. How am I going to get out of this pit I find myself in? I feel very responsible to help myself heal but all my efforts were going nowhere. I literally felt stuck.
Out of the blue it felt like a thought was put in my head. Just a name. Kamooh. Then a thought of asking for help to heal. Ok, this was so out of the blue but I did want help. It seemed like he was standing there watching me and wanting to help but that I had to ask. So I asked, per the instructions in the Sasquatch message to humanity books,"Kamooh, Kamooh, Kamooh, would you please help me heal this mess I'm stuck in that I don't know how to get out of?" Within seconds I felt like I was touched on the bottom of my right foot and a current of energy flowed up my leg.(I have heard other people's stories of healing by the Sasquatch and it's often a feeling of energy flowing up from their feet.) A sensation of warmth flooded my body and the dam broke. I cried like a little child, releasing all those pent-up emotions that had been plaguing me. After a minute or so I felt much better and I was able to go about my day happily even though something still didn't quite feel right.
Later in the day I went out to ground myself and enjoy the sunshine. It was very beautiful and while warm the sun was not too hot. What was interesting though was that I felt strong energy on the top of my head and forehead almost like there was a giant hand resting on top of my head. While I don't know if it was Kamooh or not, it was a very beautiful experience and I felt so loved and surrounded with beauty and acceptance.
Several years ago I had painted a picture that looked like stained glass and a friend had bought a print and apparently had finally hung up because she sent me a photo of it hanging above her sofa. This inspired me to paint again and so I wanted to paint another "stained glass" picture but couldn't find inspiration on what to paint. After Kamooh helped me I was thinking of the word vulnerable for I was not wrong in thinking after I read the Sasquatch books that I would find it easier to trust them than humans which makes it easier to be more vulnerable and ask them for help. I couldn't think how to paint something that would show vulnerability until I was sitting out in the sunshine and the thought/picture came to mind of a flower inside a broken down wall and it just went from there. I'm delighted with the outcome...
The next morning when I woke up I lay there listening to a reiki video which usually relaxes me but this time I felt anger and the desire to fling my phone across the room. Of course, it wasn't my phone's fault but I was so tired of feeling like this. My nights had not been refreshing. My days had been miserable. I was fed up. I asked my spirit guides to help me know what to do because this was totally out of character for me. Almost instantly I was reminded of my first impression of that energy healer when she reached saying she felt led to help and how everything had been awful after we had connected last week. Instantly I knew what I had to do. I needed to cleanse my energy and separate myself from her and protect myself. I realized that I can trust my gut instincts and this was just the lesson to help me learn this.
I needed to do laundry so I put some salt in the rinse water because salt is a cleansing agent and often used for cleaning energy. After I was done I took a shower and asked the water to wash away any energies from that individual that were not for my highest good. As I put on a clean set of clothes I spoke out loud as my eternal authentic self to anchor a completely safe space around my being to disconnect myself from that person and any future attempts of her to access my energy forever. By then I realized that while she may have had good intentions, our energies and beliefs were not compatible and I chose to take back my own power(I kind of gave it away by letting her into my life and agreeing to meet with her) and follow what feels right and aligns with who I am.
I had planned to go out on the woods for awhile and was hoping for some healing help as I wasn't quite sure if everything was resolved. I did feel like myself again and I felt joy and gratitude for life again. When I got to the woods I felt welcomed and made my way to my usual spot with one exception. On Sunday evening at the hybrid children channeling event it was said that pine trees are amazing right now because the work that they are doing right now is downloading new information to help the planet and humanity evolve to higher consciousness and so since pine trees are actually my favorite kind of tree I found one to sit next to while I did my usual morning energy work. In fact, there were 2 pine trees a few yards apart that I was drawn to so I had to choose which one was the most comfiest to sit next to without any poison ivy.
After I finished my energy routine I just sat there. I had released even more energy and felt much more relaxed. I had taken stuff along to do but it didn't appeal to me at all. Instead there were birds all around happily going about their day and it was so beautiful and immersive that I felt like I was part of the forest. I felt such joy and gratitude rise up within that I wanted to sing but with the trail nearby I didn't want to give away my location so I just hummed. Within a minute I felt such a wave of energy coming from behind me that it made me cry and the tree seemed to be letting me know it like my humming. It seemed to encourage and love me. It was beautiful.
I was getting tired because of all the stuff I'd been dealing with and wished I could lay down and take a nap. While I wanted to take a nap in the woods it didn't feel the safest so I just lay there. Just before I left I decided that I will line myself up between the two pine trees and do the rainbows and sparkles meditation. What was really cool though was that I felt like I was hooked up to an electrical machine because I felt a wave of energy flowing through my body. It continued for 5-10 minutes while I lay there. It felt like the trees were sending their energy through my body. It was quite powerful and so beautiful. I gave them both a hug and thanked them for I felt honored and loved by them. And it was a totally new and unexpected experience...some awesome pine tree medicine!
Now I feel like myself again, having gotten a good night's rest. I'm back to enjoying the beautiful moments of my life and trusting that things will work out for my highest good. It was an interesting experience for sure and I definitely know now that I can trust myself to know if something is good for me or not. It feels good to be happy again...
And so, if you find yourself having a hard time trusting yourself after trauma and abuse, let my experience be a reminder to you that you can trust yourself. There are so many lessons to learn through our experiences. And healing doesn't have to be done all by yourself. It's ok to ask for help especially if you know that being has your highest good in mind. I learned about Kamooh, a Sasquatch elder, through the Sasquatch Message to Humanity books and what I read was enough for me to know I can trust him and once again he has showed up in a beautiful way to help me heal for which I am so grateful!
Thanks for reading! I hope you found some inspiration to take with you!🤍🏞️💎🧚🌲🐵
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