Seeing My First Sasquatch, Fibonacci Sequence & More Healing
- Sparkling Diamond
- Oct 6
- 17 min read
So much has happened in the last week and a half that I hardly know where to start. I feel like I'm caught in a whirlwind of beautiful experiences and I'm having a hard time keeping myself grounded. At the end of my last blog post I mentioned listening to a video of a reiki healing and channeling session that caused a literal shift to happen in my being. If you can find my comment you will find the time stamp that it occurred as well as what I experienced. Things have felt different since then. I feel like I'm still in this world but I feel like I'm not really part of it. It's a very interesting feeling.
The next few days after that blur together. I don't remember much except that I kept trying to find healing for different things popping up such as being triggered by my religious past. I will probably miss some details but will do my best to share in case others can glean something useful from my experiences.
One video I watched had a short meditation in the beginning to help us remember that we are light and love at our core. I was inspired to modify it and use it as a way of helping me to help the earth and humanity. I feel like all I do is work on healing myself and I'm not doing anything to help others.
This is the process I have come up with: I first imagine sending into the earth and wrapping around the core of the earth to hold me steady and then the earth energies of steadiness, rooted and groundedness flow up through my lower chakras into my heart. From there I send up a rope/ pillar through the clouds to Source and connect there from which flows love, light and healing energies down through all my upper chakras into my heart. I imagine the love and earth energies mixing in my heart which causes ripples to flow outward like it does when you drop a pebble into a body of water. I imagine the ripples first flowing to all the trees in mine and my neighbors' backyards, next to the village I live in, on to the state and then the continent, continuing until the earth is covered and saturated by the loving, healing energies I imagine flowing from my heart center. Then I continue to the atmosphere and on to the planets until the known universe is saturated before allowing the ripples to continue to unknown worlds. I imagine and intend that the ripples will continually flow until I renew it the next day. My reasoning is that if we really are all connected and that our intention has more power than we understand then the love I "send" out every day will make a difference somewhere even if it's in a miniscule way or unseen corner. A small difference that could become an unstoppable force.
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The next thing that comes to mind is listening to Arla Collett Williams' interviews. She is a very grandmotherly person and my grandmothers were never supportive and in fact were not pleased when I left the culture I grew up in to pursue my own path I felt led to take. She also talks about the Sasquatch and other beings of which my mind has been opened to in the last several months after I read the Sasquatch Message to Humanity book series. I listened to one interview that I wasn't sure how to feel about due to the interviewer's way of doing it. But I didn't leave with nothing. She shared a personal experience about seeing the divinity in others instead of hating/disliking them. The next morning I was trying to figure out what to do about how the 3 day notice traumatized me because I couldn't pay my rent last month. I didn't like how it made me feel chilled to the bone because of people's cruelty, greed and lack of care for their fellow human that falls into hardship. I asked my spirit guides for help and was reminded of how Arla dealt with her situation and the advice she gave. I later decided to put it in my own words to share so it can help more people:
Can you see the divine in yourself?
Can you love the divine in yourself?
Can you see the divine in those around you, even those who mistreat you, even those who do horrible things beyond your understanding?
If you can come to the place where you can love the divine in yourself, try loving the divine in those around you, even the cruel ones, those who do things that chill your blood with their acts...
They have only forgotten who they really are. They have forgotten the divine part of themselves.
You may still have wounds to heal but if you can come to the place where you can send love to those who have hurt you, it has the potentiality to set you free and help you heal.
Love is the answer. Love heals.
With this in mind I thought that if he is so unloving and uncompassionate then perhaps his actions towards me are just a reflection of his lack of self-love. From what glimpses I've gotten of him I think he might be a veteran. I was able to send him love despite his reaction to my inability to pay my rent. It helped me feel better and have compassion for him and I didn't realize how big that was till I was telling my counselor about it and she was like, "That's huge." I think doing that helped me forgive him but I still struggle with the language of the notice itself and the person that delivered it even though I know that they were only the messenger. So still some healing work to do there...
Another thing I came across was Phoenix Healing Creations, a lady who uses The Emotion Code by Nelson Bradley and muscle testing to release negative emotions and beliefs from hundreds of generations back. I was immediately interested because I feel like my lineage is so dark with religion and abuse that I have a really hard time accepting where I come from and I've been wishing for ways to heal my ancestors and me to stop the cycle and set my family free if possible. Watching her do her thing made me so happy that I may now have found a way to do what I wanted to do. I downloaded the book the Emotion Code and thought that if I don't have the money to pay someone, perhaps I can teach myself. I devoured the book and started to practice only to realize that I have so much self-doubt that there was no way I would get the results in the time I wanted results. With that in mind I went on a search for the cheapest practitioner thinking that it would at least get me started. To my delight I found someone offering a free first session and reached out.
After I had talked to my counselor last week I decided to go out in the woods for awhile which is 20 minutes from my house. I was not more than 5-10 yards inside the woods when I had this very interesting sensation that felt like my heart was being opened and exposed. It was a very new feeling and made me feel a bit more vulnerable and I wasn't sure what to think about it but continued on into the woods. I didn't feel any threat of danger or harm and I consider it to have been some sort of healing from the forest people. I spent several hours in my usual spot and with all the healing I had been trying to do the several days before I felt like I needed to ground and decompress so I just sat there for several hours. I felt like I was almost in a trance or deep meditative state. Just before I got up to leave I telepathically asked that if there's any Sasquatch near if it would be ok to let me feel their presence. In less than a minute I felt a very strong loving presence behind me almost like there was a giant hand on my back. It made me cry but I left feeling refreshed and loved.
Three days later on Sunday I was finishing up my morning routine and hadn't quite yet thought about what I was going to do with myself. I had this idea of going to the state park that is around 40 minutes from my home. I was torn about whether it was wise or not because I didn't have enough gas or money to spare for gas so I asked my spirit guides to help me know what to do. I had some affirmations that I was doing so I did them and as I finished I started crying which was really surprising because I hadn't been feeling sad at all. So I tuned inside to see what the reason was and I felt as though the spirit guides around me were asking me to go and I also felt like the land itself or a being on the land was asking me to come. I didn't know what to think as I had never had such an experience before so I decided to go not knowing what I was getting myself into.
When I got there, there were lots of people and I had to go down the road a bit away from the river to a different trail so I could be alone and in tune with nature because people distract and scare me.
I went down one direction about a mile and found a nice quiet spot in some pine woods to eat my lunch, leaving behind some cashews on a log as an offering to the nature spirits and forest beings.
I wasn't feeling the best so I was exhausted but not ready to go back home so I went out the other direction to explore and hopefully find a place to rest and create some art.
This trail was more overgrown and I didn't feel the safest. But little by little I ventured about half a mile down the trail and found a large pine tree with a fallen log beside it and when I sat there I discovered that the mosquitoes didn't bother me. There was also a lot of underbrush so I was uncomfortable there but after not being able to find a place nearby that I liked better I went back to that spot. I sat for a bit trying to get used to the uncomfortableness and thinking that this could be potentially where a very real Sasquatch encounter could happen that would probably terrify me enough for me to never go back in the woods. I didn't want to be scared and so many negative stories that I've heard over the years seem to come up in my conscious mind at such times leaving me feeling like I'm being bombarded from all directions. I sat with the discomfort for a bit then dug out my paper and pencil colors. I decided to create a picture depicting what I'd like to happen with my first Sasquatch encounter even though I feel like I've had multiple ones where they were cloaked and I couldn't see them but I felt what I consider to be their presence. As I was creating I kept looking around trying to relax and get accustomed to not being able to see as far as I'd like and was just getting really into creating when suddenly above me a branch creaked so loud that it nearly scared me out of my skin. I looked up but saw nothing. I looked around and saw nothing. Beside the large tree right behind me was a smaller tree who's branches were against the big tree. There was no wind and in the entire half hour I'd been sitting there it had been very still with no wind and any birds I heard were on the other side of the trail. The only explanation I could come up with is that a forest being must have been standing behind me, watching, and leaned against the tree causing its branches to rub on the large tree. It took awhile for me to calm down and as I finished my picture I was sitting there admiring it and feeling the beauty and delight of it when I heard pitter pattering feet in the leaves on the trail. I looked up in time to see a beautiful fox trotting by in front of me as though I was invisible and it nearly freaked me out again because of how I've been taught to fear nature and all the beautiful beings in nature were dangerous and harmful. I've been trying to work on my fears to try to overcome them. About the same time that I saw the fox I heard voices so I knew that there were some people headed my way. I packed up my stuff by the time they came in sight. They said hi but I assume it must have looked a bit strange to see a young woman sitting out in the middle of nowhere. I also wondered if they are shape-shifted Sasquatch as I have been hearing of other people who have had encounters and later realized they were actually not people even though they looked like people. It was two men and they had very similar clothing but in different colors. They were also the same same size even though one looked a little younger than the other one. They hardly said anything to each other and what the one said to the other after they had passed me didn't make sense so I now wonder if they were Sasquatch. After they were gone I got up and started making my way back to the vehicle wondering if I'd missed the whole reason why I was supposed to come. As I write this now though I wonder if that was what I was supposed to experience under that tree. Now that I've had time to process it, it feels like it may have been agreed to on a higher level than I was consciously aware of as I intend on my dreams every night to meet with and continue building my relationship with the Sasquatch. I now think it was just another level of exposure, of me trying to face my fears and having unexpected experiences. And I would totally not be surprised if there was a Sasquatch standing behind me the entire time and I was just not allowed to be aware of it because I wasn't ready...
On Monday morning I heard back from the lady I had reached out to about the emotion code work I mentioned above. She said she had a cancellation and could meet with me in half an hour if that worked for me. Of course I said yes even though I was a bit worried if my inner child would be ready. I felt a lot of anxiety but she was kind and explained the process. She said every practitioner takes what they learn and do their own thing with it and for her she connects with the inner child which reminded me very much of the IFS( Internal Family Systems) modality that I'd been working with for the last several years in my healing journey. She connected with my inner child and said my inner child is so excited which was a relief for me. In the process she was able to release 13 emotions (from ages 0-6) such as fear, terror and helplessness. She said most people only do 10 so that made me quite happy.
She gave me a beautiful visualisation to do to help the energies release over the next 2 days.
The visualization goes like this(I added my own unique twists to it): I imagine my adult self walking through a beautiful forest to a beautiful rainbow waterfall (I chose 3 colors for the waterfall) where my inner child is sitting and waiting for me. I pick her up and hold her close and give her all the unconditional love and support she never got and she gives the same back to me. Then I ask her if she's ready to go to the waterfall. It looks like water but it's like air so it can't drown us. Sometimes I lay flat on my back with my inner child sprawled on top of me. Other times I sit leaning against a large stone in a somewhat reclining position with my inner child in my lap leaning on my chest. Then there's times we're too happy to sit so we dance under the flow. This rainbow waterfall has magic powers and can wash away any negative harmful energies. Behind the waterfall is a hidden doorway and when we feel ready we go into the underground room. I call it the sparkle cave where we get our powers back. When I was told about this visualization she called it like a snowstorm and the picture I got in my mind is of those warm air blower things (that mess up your hair lol) that are right inside the entrance of a lot of grocery stores. So in this underground sparkle room I imagine it like a snow storm where the snow falls gently and softly. Instead of snow though it is gold sparkles and white feathers. I imagine it to have a foot deep layer on the ground so we can roll in it while still "snowing". From there we go out through a short side tunnel to a golden pond/ pool. Around the pool the ground is paved with blocks making it nice and smooth and beautiful. The purpose of this golden pool is for more healing and also to assist in manifesting desires. Often my inner child is dancing along ahead of me and splashes headlong into the pool and often I do too. Once again this pool looks and acts like golden water but is like air. Sometimes we lay sprawled on the bottom of the pool and just lay there letting the healing happen. Sometimes we discuss what we want to manifest. It is here that I always imagine money raining from the sky onto the pavement, more than enough, and I can take whatever I need. Sometimes we imagine other things that we want to happen. It's a very beautiful experience...
This session was on Monday and the last day of September. I had no idea how I was going to pay rent and so I posted on Facebook asking for help. I didn't like how it made me feel to have to ask for help again. A lady reached out saying she felt called to help and sent me some money and a recorded energy healing that she did just for me. I was still several hundred dollars short for rent and had a really hard time trusting that everything would work out. I've been asking my spirit guides for help and I keep seeing synchronistic numbers and every time I look up the meaning it keeps giving me the message that I need to trust that the universe has my back, that big positive changes are coming and things will work out.
Just a week before I had woken up with a very clear vision of myself being carried on a stretcher/ hammock and surrounded by a crowd of light beings. I couldn't see beyond them but what really got my attention was how scared and unable to trust that I was. They were helping me get to where I needed to go but I was so unable to accept their help that I kept sitting up in fear trying to see where I was being taken. It took me several days of hard work to surrender to the unseen forces around me who were trying to help me get to where I needed to go.
The next day after the emotion code session I went to the woods for a good part of the day. The energies were so strong and there was so much pressure in my 3rd eye that I thought something was wrong. I texted the lady to see if she could help me understand what was going on and she said that the energies are leaving and they're opening my third eye. This was all new territory for me and rather exciting but I wasn't prepared for what I'd see in the woods. I'm used to only seeing deer, squirrels and birds besides humans. I had waited to do my energy work till I got to the woods and so I did them once I was settled in my favorite spot. I can't remember if I was done or not but suddenly about 20+ yards in front of me was a massive black as night sasquatch. He was walking so I only saw his side and he was looking straight ahead. I had a very strong feeling that he was purposely giving me this glimpse of himself but didn't look at me because he didn't want to scare me. It startled me so much to see this massive being suddenly appear in front of me and the fear nearly froze me to my spot but then I blinked and he was gone from my sight but not before I saw that the black skin around his face had no hair and was smooth and shiny and his hair on the rest of his body looked very well kept and not messy. I'd say he looked like he was at least 8-10 feet tall and really looked like a big basketball player only bigger and very muscular. It took me several hours to process what I'd seen before I even thought of telling anyone. After I got past the fear I felt humbled and honored at my experience. I avoid any story that could scare me because I don't want to be scared and with all the trauma and abuse I've been through it doesn't take much to put me in a panic/terror state. Others say the Sasquatch will test you etc. but in my experience so far they've been loving and kind and each experience seems to keep building on the next and if I feel fear it often doesn't get worse but it seems like I keep being pushed just a little bit more out of my comfort zone to greater and higher experiences. I don't know how else to explain it and it is encouraging to me to see and experience their gentleness in a way that doesn't overwhelm me but helps me heal not to mention all the times I've asked for help and healing and they did. It is really beautiful journey and I'm excited about what's going to happen next!
That evening my local friend who had ghosted me for a number of months brought over some pizza after work to hang out a bit. I had made a miniature princess room box (I want to make a video with photos sometime soon) and I wanted her to have it because I didn't know if I was going to end up on the street in a few weeks or not. She said she wanted to help me with my rent and she'd bring a check over after work. She ended up getting sick the next day so I ended up going to her house to get it and here she gave me the full amount needed to cover my rent. I could scarcely believe it. I had been so dreading the trauma of another 3 day notice but now I didn't have to worry about it for this month. I ended up paying my rent a day late but as far as I know I didn't have to pay a late fee like I expected. With the rent taken care of suddenly I found myself not knowing what to do with myself. There's not much to do except to try to heal myself and go to the woods or watch videos or read book.
I discovered a few days after my emotion code session that my terror of the dark has basically disappeared. I had been trying to work through my fears but to have it gone so quickly is more than awesome. I also noticed yesterday when I hiked several miles around the lake and had to go through the campground that people didn't bother me as much which is also huge. It makes me excited for my next emotion code session after seeing these huge shifts. It really has made life a bit more enjoyable on several occasions already.
I don't know what is coming next. I feel like I'm in an in-between space. A space where one life has ended but the next one hasn't started yet. It's a rather weird feeling but I'm practicing on surrendering to the unknown and going with the flow.
I almost forgot about the Fibonacci scale...back in the beginning of the year I learned about the Fibonacci sequence and discovered it could even be applied to human life. Here you can find the Fibonacci life chart where it will give you dates where big potential events can happen in your life. Out of fun I did it and discovered that I have 2 dates for this year. While something can happen within 30 days of the date I found it very interesting that it has come to mind in the last week again and in looking back I realized that my car gave out a little over a week before March 4th which was the first date but it has turned out to be a blessing in disguise. The second date for this year is on October 8th, Wed., and we shall see what happens. If someone would have told me what all I'd learn and experience in this time I don't think I would have believed it. While my situation isn't the most comfortable to be in I would never have been open to everything I've learned and experienced because I would have been distracted by work and trying to survive and instead I was stuck at home with myself most of the summer.
Anyway, this is getting long and it's high time for bed. I had written this whole post several days ago only to discover when I was basically done that only a quarter of it had saved which meant I basically had to rewrite it. It takes me several hours to write one so this one's got double the time in it and I probably missed some stuff that I had written in the first one. I hope it's been an enjoyable read and that you were able to glean some wisdom or ideas that might help you on your journey. Thank you for taking the time to read about my experiences. I hope they can be an encouragement to at least one person....🤍🧚🏞️💎
Ps. There's some new videos coming up on YouTube in the next few days if you're interested...just me sharing bits of my story and experiences in authenticity...
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