The last month or two has been quite the journey... exciting and full of curiosity but also a lot of moments of fear, worry and anxiety. But I don't regret any of it as I have learned so much and my curiosity just keeps growing...I find myself excited and anticipating good things to come. Before I start describing all the things that I've been learning, exploring and experiencing, I just want to mention that if you are not open-minded and are going to judge and criticize the

I've been trying to sit with the memories and pain but I was also afraid I was retraumatizing myself so this morning I wanted to try to...

It is late but this memory has been weighing heavily on my mind since it came to the forefront last night. I have no idea what triggered it but I was just getting ready for bed and not particularly thinking about any one thing. I know I have briefly mentioned this in another blog post or two and I will spare the gruesome details but proceed at your own risk 🚩for this could be triggering to some...🚩 We had barn cats when I was growing up and we always loved playing with the

Today I did something I've never done before...I had a tea party with all my parts: past, present and future. My heart is full. 🤍

I want to say how much I appreciate the people who genuinely care about me as a person for who I am and those who have invested in my situation. If it wasn't for those people I would not be where I am today. I was just thinking today of how I used to write so much about my healing journey but since I landed in the shelter last October I haven't had much progress to write about, especially about IFS sessions. It seems like ending up in the shelter and the grueling months of tr

What little girl doesn't like a bedroom where she can pretend it's real life? Like being a princess in a castle? I decided that my...

A bit ago I was thinking about perfectionism and the role it has played in my life. I remember different people throughout my life telling me that maybe I'm trying to hard. I find it hard at times when people I work with don't seem to care about their work or they don't seem to care about how their actions affect others. I don't want to be upset with them but I just don't get the mindset. For me, I think perfectionism started when I was still quite young and I saw a plaque in

I've been struggling to figure out what might be of interest to my readers so I'm a bit behind today... even though I'm not done with my...

About a week ago I was trying to figure out what I could put on top of my tree for Valentine's Day that I would like and would also be unique as that's what I prefer over traditional things. I was scrolling on Pinterest and remembered the gnomes I had saved as ideas for something to make for decor. It took me a bit to figure out how I want to go about creating one for a tree topper as I needed to be able to use what I had... I found the cardboard roll I had saved from the pla

This is just an impromptu post because I'm trying to process where I'm at with religion, Christianity in particular...I want to talk about it but this is about the safest space I can think of to try to put my thoughts into words without them just staying stuck inside of me. I'm putting myself out there, and in a way risking myself, to put this out like this. I had someone tell me that the sad part of deconstruction is that people often walk away from Jesus. I don't intend to

This month's food celebration is rather simple. I didn't have the energy to try to do a lot. I made most of these things for yesterday's Christmas Day meal with my friend. It was a delightful time. Eating good food and talking. Opening a few simple gifts under the tree and in the stockings and talking some more. I saw this marinated cheese recipe and thought it sounded good. It is very simple and easy to make except the cream cheese was a bit of a mess and was kind of crumbly

The other day I was looking for hairspray to use for a project after I got done with my shift. At first I got a big bottle of the shelf then I was looking at aloe vera gel because mine is empty but I didn't like all the ingredients in it so I wandered over to the travel size section thinking that perhaps there's a smaller size with less ingredients. What I found instead was a smaller bottle of hair spray for which I was delighted because I only want to use it to stiffen curta

At my job we get a free turkey for Thanksgiving. When I was getting mine my manager said that if I don't have plans that I am welcome to join them. He and his wife had helped me move my furniture when I finally got out of the shelter and they knew that I didn't have family or very many friends nearby, so they wanted to make sure I don't have to spend the holidays alone which I greatly appreciate. It has been a rough few weeks and so I hadn't really considered how I was going

It's been a while since I've written about my healing journey. There's been a profound shift in the last little bit which has been quite interesting and I am excited for where it's going to lead me. In past IFS sessions I would approach my hurting parts from the past with my present self but now I seem to be approaching them with my future self which is quite interesting. There is a lot of different things that have led to this shift and... FYI if you are religiously christi

What you need: -curtain lights -a branch -string -scissors -decorating objects I went to Hobby Lobby to get some things for projects and...

One day I stopped at the Goodwill to see if I could find some linen and wool clothing to add to my more natural wardrobe ( if you at all...

I am a bit hesitant to share all this stuff because I have experienced people who call themselves christians to lash out or try to tell me I'm wrong or that I'm going off the deep end, or to hell basically, because of the choices I've made in the past and... honestly, I expect more down the road. But if you're here reading this I hope you will be open minded and at least follow along on my journey of curiosity. This is about me and where I'm at. It has nothing to do with you.

I've had this bird cage for a number of years and couldn't figure out how I wanted to use it. Now, for the first time in my life I have a...