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Just A Little Bit More Healing...
Last night I was able to release just a little bit more grief and pain from how my abusive employers treated me...it is still such a...

Sparkling Diamond
Apr 15, 20248 min read
It Is Not Okay
In February I felt that maybe I'd be out of the shelter by the end of the month. (But that was false)I planned that I would spend March...

Sparkling Diamond
Apr 12, 20248 min read


When Did It Start?
Today I was thinking about that question. A few days ago I was asked when the exhaustion started. When I first felt it.

Sparkling Diamond
Apr 7, 20245 min read


Into The Pit
It was just such a straight out-of-the-blue question that even if something was or had happened that I remembered, I don't think I'd have

Sparkling Diamond
Mar 31, 20244 min read


Slowly Suffocating
See the little girl? She's very young. Maybe 2 or 3 years old. She feels so bewildered and alone. The people who should be nurturing her...

Sparkling Diamond
Mar 24, 20246 min read


Nightmares Aren't Always Bad
And it reminds that 16 year old part of me of how it used to be at that age. Yes, my parents owned the property but I had no space to...

Sparkling Diamond
Jan 22, 20248 min read


Rags At First Glance
Last week someone sent me these words when I needed to hear them because I have been feeling so pressured to "fit in a box" (which...

Sparkling Diamond
Dec 24, 20232 min read


Lifting the Burden
This past weekend was horrible. I had things I wanted to do but I didn't get any of it done... Friday I went to work and took a picture...

Sparkling Diamond
Dec 7, 20237 min read
More Salt
Edit: I had taken this down because I was unsure whether I really should post it but decided to repost it in its rawness...

Sparkling Diamond
Dec 7, 20235 min read


Christmas Dreams
*AI generated photo Now I'm going to start dreaming for Christmas...what my dream Christmas would look like...the colors would be blue,...

Sparkling Diamond
Nov 23, 20234 min read


I Am A Wild Child
Jesus, can I come home?
I'm so tired.
I just want to be free.
Free from it all...
And I want a hug.
A big one.
A long one.
A comforting one.

Sparkling Diamond
Nov 19, 20234 min read


Scared Stiff
Implicit memories and flashbacks are no respecter of present situations or whether you feel safe or not...They are like demanding teasers sa

Sparkling Diamond
Nov 16, 20238 min read
A Different End To My Day
Also now that I'm here and getting used to the sights and sounds, I am reminded of the group homes that I've been in in the past.

Sparkling Diamond
Oct 24, 20235 min read


Starving For Connection
Graduating from school at 8th grade, the future looked extremely dark. All I could see was that there would now be no escape from my parents

Sparkling Diamond
Oct 18, 20238 min read


The Latest Thing
And I keep hearing my dad's voice "It's just all in your head!" A phrase I often heard when I wasn't feeling well....

Sparkling Diamond
Oct 15, 20236 min read


Globs of Anger
If anger consisted of gooey globs, I'd be flinging it at quite a number of people right now. And...I guess I wasn't expecting to receive s

Sparkling Diamond
Oct 10, 202310 min read


Two Things
Two things have been coming to mind lately: 1. I have been copying recipes off Pinterest to fill my recipe box with healthy recipes so...

Sparkling Diamond
Oct 7, 20232 min read


Betrayal: Healing Comes By Feeling
Pretty gruesome, isn't it? I don't know what color pain is but I know how it feels. It is heavy. It hurts. Sometimes...

Sparkling Diamond
Oct 3, 202313 min read


Pressure, Pressure Everywhere
Where does this pressure come from? From people's good intentions. Friends implying their opinions. My own internal dialogue from...

Sparkling Diamond
Sep 26, 20237 min read


Calmly Aggressive
Aggression dressed up in a pretty package is like poison in a relationship. We may be unaware of our passive aggression but we are still...

Sparkling Diamond
Sep 19, 20237 min read
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