A bit ago I was thinking about perfectionism and the role it has played in my life. I remember different people throughout my life telling me that maybe I'm trying to hard. I find it hard at times when people I work with don't seem to care about their work or they don't seem to care about how their actions affect others. I don't want to be upset with them but I just don't get the mindset. For me, I think perfectionism started when I was still quite young and I saw a plaque in

This is just an impromptu post because I'm trying to process where I'm at with religion, Christianity in particular...I want to talk about it but this is about the safest space I can think of to try to put my thoughts into words without them just staying stuck inside of me. I'm putting myself out there, and in a way risking myself, to put this out like this. I had someone tell me that the sad part of deconstruction is that people often walk away from Jesus. I don't intend to

The other day I was looking for hairspray to use for a project after I got done with my shift. At first I got a big bottle of the shelf then I was looking at aloe vera gel because mine is empty but I didn't like all the ingredients in it so I wandered over to the travel size section thinking that perhaps there's a smaller size with less ingredients. What I found instead was a smaller bottle of hair spray for which I was delighted because I only want to use it to stiffen curta

At my job we get a free turkey for Thanksgiving. When I was getting mine my manager said that if I don't have plans that I am welcome to join them. He and his wife had helped me move my furniture when I finally got out of the shelter and they knew that I didn't have family or very many friends nearby, so they wanted to make sure I don't have to spend the holidays alone which I greatly appreciate. It has been a rough few weeks and so I hadn't really considered how I was going

It's been a while since I've written about my healing journey. There's been a profound shift in the last little bit which has been quite interesting and I am excited for where it's going to lead me. In past IFS sessions I would approach my hurting parts from the past with my present self but now I seem to be approaching them with my future self which is quite interesting. There is a lot of different things that have led to this shift and... FYI if you are religiously christi

I am a bit hesitant to share all this stuff because I have experienced people who call themselves christians to lash out or try to tell me I'm wrong or that I'm going off the deep end, or to hell basically, because of the choices I've made in the past and... honestly, I expect more down the road. But if you're here reading this I hope you will be open minded and at least follow along on my journey of curiosity. This is about me and where I'm at. It has nothing to do with you.