top of page

Search


Getting Used to Horse Therapy Again
Yesterday was the third time that I spent time with Rose, my therapy horse. She is brown all over with a big round belly. Last week when...

Sparkling Diamond
Jul 17, 20249 min read
A Nightmare I Don't Know How To Wake Up From
If you have been following my story lately you may have heard that I was in the shelter for 7 months...it really took me for a loop...

Sparkling Diamond
Jun 25, 20245 min read


Progress or Not?
TW: Child Sexual Abuse I haven't been writing much lately. I've been wanting to but the words inside my head are just all jumbled and my...

Sparkling Diamond
Jun 11, 20248 min read
Sliding Into My DMs
On Sunday night I had an individual slip into my DMs implying that she's doing well but that I'm not because I'm not trying hard enough....

Sparkling Diamond
Apr 23, 20249 min read
Uncovering Some More Wounds...
Last night in therapy I went to a place I wasn't planning to go. A place that seemed so far away and yet so similar to my current situation. A few of you may remember me from that time...

Sparkling Diamond
Apr 22, 202410 min read
It Is Not Okay
In February I felt that maybe I'd be out of the shelter by the end of the month. (But that was false)I planned that I would spend March...

Sparkling Diamond
Apr 12, 20248 min read


Slowly Suffocating
See the little girl? She's very young. Maybe 2 or 3 years old. She feels so bewildered and alone. The people who should be nurturing her...

Sparkling Diamond
Mar 24, 20246 min read


Nightmares Aren't Always Bad
And it reminds that 16 year old part of me of how it used to be at that age. Yes, my parents owned the property but I had no space to...

Sparkling Diamond
Jan 22, 20248 min read


Thanksgiving Dreams
Yesterday when I clocked in at work there was a sign that mentioned employees getting a turkey to take home apparently. At this point I...

Sparkling Diamond
Nov 20, 20233 min read


I Am A Wild Child
Jesus, can I come home?
I'm so tired.
I just want to be free.
Free from it all...
And I want a hug.
A big one.
A long one.
A comforting one.

Sparkling Diamond
Nov 19, 20234 min read


Starving For Connection
Graduating from school at 8th grade, the future looked extremely dark. All I could see was that there would now be no escape from my parents

Sparkling Diamond
Oct 18, 20238 min read


Betrayal: Healing Comes By Feeling
Pretty gruesome, isn't it? I don't know what color pain is but I know how it feels. It is heavy. It hurts. Sometimes...

Sparkling Diamond
Oct 3, 202313 min read


Therapist Analysis
Be brave. Be strong. Be courageous. Fight for yourself. You are worth it.

Sparkling Diamond
Sep 13, 202312 min read


What if...
What she is trying to do is protect me from more pain, more heartache, more invalidation by those close to her that she dares to share her c

Sparkling Diamond
Aug 14, 20239 min read


Talking To Myself...
Today is one of those days that are really out of sorts. It could be triggered by any number of things. Two of the culprits may be the...

Sparkling Diamond
Aug 9, 202310 min read


Midnight Mutterings
I didn't know what to expect. I didn't want to talk about whatever came up because this was an area I hated as well as tried to...

Sparkling Diamond
Jul 28, 20238 min read


Little Girls Don't Deserve...
These words have been running through my being since my (exhausting)therapy session last night... Little girls (children) don't deserve...

Sparkling Diamond
Jun 12, 20232 min read


IFS (Internal Family Systems)
Here is the blog post some of you have been so looking forward to...as I see the benefits and am getting a better grip on how it works...

Sparkling Diamond
May 9, 20239 min read


Did You Know You Have Sparkly Points?
"Our sparkly points aren't made to be cut off. They make up who we are. "

Sparkling Diamond
Apr 10, 202310 min read


New Things...
I learned something new in my Sunday therapy appointment; cognitively anyway...and that's a start.... Some of y'all know the pain the...

Sparkling Diamond
Feb 27, 20232 min read
bottom of page