I haven't been in a writing mood lately. Partly because it feels like not much is happening, on the surface anyway. A lot has been going...

I am so happy! It's been a crazy week with all the decisions, sleepless nights, and all the beautiful things that have been happening...

This is just an impromptu post because I'm trying to process where I'm at with religion, Christianity in particular...I want to talk about it but this is about the safest space I can think of to try to put my thoughts into words without them just staying stuck inside of me. I'm putting myself out there, and in a way risking myself, to put this out like this. I had someone tell me that the sad part of deconstruction is that people often walk away from Jesus. I don't intend to

A week ago I was finally able to get back into doing inner healing work. I was scared because it felt like it has been so long since I...

Yesterday was the third time that I spent time with Rose, my therapy horse. She is brown all over with a big round belly. Last week when...

If you have been following my story lately you may have heard that I was in the shelter for 7 months...it really took me for a loop...

Last night in therapy I went to a place I wasn't planning to go. A place that seemed so far away and yet so similar to my current situation. A few of you may remember me from that time...

Last night I was able to release just a little bit more grief and pain from how my abusive employers treated me...it is still such a...

Today I was thinking about that question. A few days ago I was asked when the exhaustion started. When I first felt it.

Warning: this is a really raw post. Read at your own risk...

And it reminds that 16 year old part of me of how it used to be at that age. Yes, my parents owned the property but I had no space to...

Tonight I decided that I want to make tomato soup and a toasted cheese sandwich for supper. I left the room to go to my locker in the laundry room to get some tea bags. I heard my name and assumed my sandwich was about to burn and tried to push my tired body to go a little faster. When I reentered the kitchen the lady said she had removed the pan with my sandwich off the burner because she thought that it was burning.

This past weekend was horrible. I had things I wanted to do but I didn't get any of it done... Friday I went to work and took a picture...

Edit: I had taken this down because I was unsure whether I really should post it but decided to repost it in its rawness...

Jesus, can I come home? I'm so tired. I just want to be free. Free from it all... And I want a hug. A big one. A long one. A comforting one.

I'm struggling to clear the mud out of my eyes so I can try to see clearly enough to figure out what the next thing is to do. I'm trying to

*If you would like a print of this piece it is available for sale on my website under the Painful Paintings tab... (I wrote this piece a...

(Very sarcastically) If you decide to make a new start in your life make sure that everything you take with you fits in your car that way...

I'm still in shock.

Also now that I'm here and getting used to the sights and sounds, I am reminded of the group homes that I've been in in the past.